CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

Dear Diary,

          I know I’ve missed a few days. But in my absence, I’ve been thinking about some things. I’ve been thinking about LIFE before Miss Perky caught my ATTENTION and ARRESTED my EMOTIONS. I’ve been thinking about how I used to PRAY for something to happen, something to happen to just break the routine, you know? Of school and my overloaded work schedule? Something that will make a country boy like me feel BIGGER too! And ever since I got my wish and MISS DEE (whom I futilely “pursued” so aggressively even before MISS PERKY came into the picture) came to rescue me from the hold MISS PERKY seemed to have on me, I realized one thing: that the bigger your world gets, the bigger your problems become too!

          

In my desperate attempt to ‘get HER out of my system,’ MISS PERKY who consistently told me that it’d be a COLD DAY IN HELL before she even considers dating me, the chance to be with one of my numerous adorers, MISS DEE (*not her real name*), presented itself and I took it! The truth is, as far as MISS PERKY is concerned, WANTING her is hard to FORGET, LOVING her is hard to REGRET, LOSING her is hard to ACCEPT, but even with all the HURT I've felt, LETTING GO was the most PAINFUL yet. Indeed, sometimes we’ve got to forget how we FEEL and realize what we DESERVE.  After all, as an optimist, I’ve always had the belief that sometimes on our way to a DREAM, we get LOST and find a BETTER one. People think it is HOLDING ON that makes us STRONGER, but sometimes it's LETTING GO! Sometimes WE just have to hold our head up high, blink away the tears and say good-bye. For there’s always some GOOD in GOOD-bye! I didn't ask for it to be over, but then again, I didn't PLAN for it to BEGIN. For that's the way it is with LIFE, as some of the most beautiful days come completely by CHANCE. But even the most beautiful days eventually have their SUNSETS.

I’ve been dating MISS DEE for quite some time now and before you even think about judging me or thinking of me as a FICKLER, let me remind you about the fact that this is after all the DIARY OF A HOPELESS ROMANTIC!  Being with MISS DEE, I’ve come to the realization that the tough thing about following our heart is what people FORGET to mention, that sometimes our heart takes us places we shouldn’t be, places that are as SCARY as they are EXCITING and as DANGEROUS as they are ALLURING. And sometimes our heart takes us places that can never lead to a HAPPY ENDING. And that’s not even the difficult part, the difficult part is when you follow your heart, you leave NORMAL, you go to the unknown and once you do, you can never go back to the way things used to be!