CHAPTER NINE

DEAR DIARY,

Have you ever met somebody who is ALL WRONG and ALL RIGHT at the same time?? And you feel this MYSTERIOUS yet strong AFFINITY for them except sometimes they just drive you completely INSANE??? 

Have you ever met somebody who has the "magic" to make you wanna get in touch even though you're very BUSY?  or CRAVE for him/her to keep in TOUCH even when you really have NOTHING to say???

Have you ever felt like you have so MUCH to SAY to him/her but don't really know WHAT and HOW???

Sometimes I lie AWAKE looking at the sky, seeing the stars as bright as MISS PERKY'S eyes, waiting impatiently to hear her voice, but it never comes...

It's been 4 days since Miss Perky told me that she's had one of those "emotional talks" with her "bf" & hence can't continue seeing me as frequently as she used to...I must say it's very difficult for me and i finally see the sense in the saying that the WORST WAY TO MISS SOMEONE IS WHEN THEY ARE RIGHT NEXT TO YOU AND YOU KNOW YOU CAN'T HAVE THEM!!!

Gosh, in as much as i try to AVOID her, i can't seem to make any headway, thoughts of her keep invading my thoughts and the harder i try, the more DIFFICULT it seems...I just had to throw caution to the wind & see her today in the morning...when she finally came, i was speechless!! she greeted me with a smile so INFECTIOUS that i instantly had goose bumps all over...THANK GOD I WAS IN LONG SLEEVES!!! Then I managed to mumble "HOW ARE U" to which she responded FINE...my eyes locked with those eyes of hers that make the stars appear like they're not shinning and instantly i felt uneasy & weak in my knees!! 

In that instant I couldn't help but wonder if LOVING SOMEONE KNOWING ITS GOING TO CAUSE YOU PAIN is WORSE than BEING IN PAIN BECAUSE YOU CAN'T LOVE/have SOMEONE???hmmmmmmmm