CHAPTER SIX

DEAR DIARY,

Have you ever tried saying you're OK but you're not? Pretending to UNDERSTAND but you don't? Acting like you're BUSY but in reality, you're LONELY? Convincing people that you just wanna be FRIENDS but what you really want is more than friends? When you know that he/she has somebody else, but you PRETEND that it doesn't HURT but it really HURTS so bad INSIDE?? Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?? Well you could try sleeping in my bed and you'd see how that feels!!After talking to MISS PERKY on someone's phone for about 30 mins, my hurt ached & filled with rage that somebody could hurt her so bad as to make her cry!!The more I listened to her pains the more I felt like getting outta my bed & kicking his black ass...I am very crazy about her but she obviously loves somebody else...she is my PRIORITY but i am just her OPTION and I did try HIDING my true FEELINGS, accepting what she really want me to be. I thought it'd be easy but it ain't, especially when am even losing her company bcoz apparently my CLOSENESS to her is causing a strain on her love life. In as much as it HURT me to hear her say that she can't see me, I just had to reason with her especially if that would save her relationship & make her happy!! For her, I'll just try HARDER to ACCEPT and FACE the reality that she'll will learn and appreciate my love. It will only HAPPEN in my DREAMS but if that time comes, I HOPE not to be AWAKEN. I rather SLEEP a lifetime just to prove how much I LOVE HER.